(( JG )) + (( BJ ))


I guess it would leave a void, but maybe a void that could be healed with someone bunch better then me, whom they would deserve instead of a stupid worthless person like me.

Feeling so... ugh. No words for that without swearing. I'd go sit in support but I don't matter enough & it would be a waste of time.

Shouldn't have visited him, should have known I'd feel like &%)^. Flashbacks and I just wish I could go back in time and change them, stop myself from feeling this and seeing it happen again and again.

Does it ever stop because I don't think it does. I'm waving a white flag, I want to give up, but it'll always be here haunting me.