You're not alone, I've done the same thing....my dd told one of her classmate when she was in second grade that I tried to committ suicide and of course she told her parents.... It is a small school and now they all shun me and are afraid for me to be around their children... A few have personally attacked me because their kids asked them at the time what was suicide... She's twelve now and see's the ups and downs for herself...she knows what depression is first hand...

It's difficult when people know what you have done. It is difficult to still struggle with the thought that they would be better off without you... I struggle with it every day because I am truly a mess and have been for a very long time... I don't have the answer, except I talk to my therapist weekly about it and she always tells me it would destroy my daughter... Yes I would be free from all the pain, but all of that pain would be transferred to my dd...and then she might committ suicide...heavy sigh...so I struggle to not pull the trigger...

TJ