I just understood emotionally that my mom really meant to kill us the time she forced bleach down my sisters throat while I had to wait for my turn. Somone had called the cops on her and they came before she got me. She was mad because we had eaten. She wanted to kill us. I have known that in a way forever but now I really really feel it. Over powering sadness what would that be called? I just feel it so strong. I have been for the last 4 or 5 days but tonight I just got slammed. NOw my legs hurt too. Another reminder of things she did to me or allowed to be done to me. Oh man this sucks. How are u supposed to feel when this happens?

I tried to google this for an answer. How to feel when your mom tries or wants to kill you. And there were no good answers.