HI PEEPLS, THANK YOU FOR BEEN NIC TO ME. I LIK YOU TO.

I want to cut real bad. I just got an email from a "mentor". we've tried to eat together 3 times in last week and i messed up 3 times. he wrote me an emai that feels very manipulative and is blaming me like I want to mess up.

i havent been sleeping and i dont drive if i dont sleep cos i have a nice suv for one time in my life and i dont wanna brake it. damn. hes been nice longer than most anyone. i lost a friend last month and now i think hes gonna go and im so sad and angry. i lost my church that was important to me and a female mentor from there, she said my alters were demonic. stupid woman. what does she know about it. anyway.

i just want to cut and we dont cut anymore and i dont know what else to do. i feel like throwing up and i have no one to talk to cos its early here and who would i tell anyway. i hate being me today. i really do

Leah and Leslie - part of the group. damn singletons what do they know anyway!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!