I bring forth a subject that has been bothering me for a long, long time.

My Family: I am youngest & only girl; had 4 older brothers

Hx: My favorite brother, Greg (the only bro to protect me from other bro's) blew himself away, 3 days before Xmas. He was my world. He was 18 years old, I was 14....was always told by mother that I had no right to grieve because "he was only your brother, he was my SON" Took 8 years of therapy to even admit he was "gone" It still tears me apart...people say "That long ago? Give it up already!"

Last April 20th: My brother John (who took over for Greg) died unexpectantly; complications from 3 prior suicide attempts...including a bullet that missed his heart by a mere 1/2 inch. I am not sure what to do this year on April 20th. I am 43, he was 46 & just married. The only brother I can talk to, (there's only the oldest & we don't talk anymore) calls me & constantly yells at me "Get over IT!!!!"
My mother says: "He's with Greg & happy, so forget it!"

In past 5 years: I have lost 3 long-time friends I have formed relationships w/ while in psychiatric wards....I am told "Forget IT! They're in a better place" (that's suppose to be comforting)

Ryan.....

Who has the right to say how long to grieve? And who is most "worthy" to be able to grieve? Is there a time limit someone hasn't told me about?

My heart feels like it's been ripped out...any
opinions out there?

((((((((( DayZee ))))))))