Hi Katie and Thank you so so so much for your response!

Believe me it was helpful, just knowing that I am not alone in dealing with all of this helps me a great deal.

The thoughts you struggled with are exactly the same ones I am constantly thinking about. I keep thinking, ok, if something bad is going to happen I want it to happen before I leave for vacation. And, he is gonna be mad at me for going and want to break up with me for that, or he is going to find someone else if he hasn't already!

It's driving me crazy--it's all I think about!

I see my dr. every friday, he hasn't really been able to give me a fix for dealing with it though, other then he thinks vacation may be theraputic for me and may actually do me some good. I'm excited to go but I am afraid I am just going to battle these thoughts and have anxiety the whole time!

I won't be able to get to a PC while I am away, so unfortunately, I won't be able to come vent on here either. I will be with my family so I will have them to talk to. I often talk to my dad or mom, especailly my dad, when things get rough. They just listen and offer the best advice they can give. Even though it doesn't fix things, it helps just a little being able to express it and get it all out in the open.

Thanks again for your response and I would love to hear from you again!