it is extended in the hope of encouraging a certain behavior -- another good point I have not thought of before.

over a month ago i was in sweden at a rave where my partner played, and i suddenly got very depressed because i realised i will never be liked. i wanted to end it all and for the rest of the night i looked like i had swallowed five sour lemons, anxiously waiting to get home to OD. later in the morning i saw a dog looking funny and i laughed for a good five minutes. and then some guy who had been worshipping my partner's music, told me, "what, this is odd! you're laughing! continue doing that!"

and i'm not quite sure how i should've taken that. i wanted to please people so i would be liked so i laughed. if i had kept on frowning, nobody would have paid any attention to me.

it was and still is very hard for me to say whether that was completely sincere. was it meant that if i was more positive, i would get more attention? as in, it woul be beneficial for me. or was it meant that they were sick of seeing me depressed and it was making them uncomfortable?

well, nobody can tell, but i just thought i would bring it up. i do have difficulties with being manipulated. ;D my partner recently told me his honest opinion of my appearance and i told him not to compliment me. he said he wasn't, it was just his opinioon and whther i thought that was sincere was my own business.

which was the very right thing to say. nobody can force anyone to believe what they say. it is their business to sort that out, we can't convince with any other way than by saying and doing things.

long ramble, not making any sense, but i felt it was appropriate for this topic. may the opinions on compliments flood. (hahah)