I have been reading the posts here for the last few days before I finally decided to join the forums. Mainly because of the understanding and support you seem to give to each other, and not judgmental either way.

While I am not ashamed of my condition, and I am doing something about it. I have very little here in the way of a support group. My family is supported, my dad and younger brother, but don't think bro really understands. Though I try to explain it, but I really don't understand it myself.

The only thing I can think of, is for years I have masked my condition by always working, and just poured myself into my work when things got really bad. Though recently events as made it so that I can not longer do what I used to. I pretty much fall apart when stress hits.

I have been in an almost complete depressed state for least the last 4 months, with brief bouts for manic usually following a stress trigger or what not.

well I am starting to babble, and before I go completey off the subject, which I already have, I'll end this post.

I just hope, that I can give the same understanding and support to others, that I hope and pray I can get from you all.

Thanks you