Well drunksunflower:

I'm not sure we've formally met yet, so I'd just like to say it's nice to meet you. Another thing--answer to your question: It doesn't end.

I was feeling the exact same way. (weird parallel lives in a different realm possibly?) I talked to my doc -- she had me on Prozac for depression and Xanax for anxiety. I tell her the anxiety is worse since quitting smoking in December so she takes me off the Prozac (which also causes anxiety) and puts me on Zoloft and I still keep the Xanax at a low dosage. I do have an anxiety disorder. Sometimes the symptoms of depression and the symptoms of anxiety intermingle. You might have an anxiety disorder as well, you are very lucky that your doctor prescribed you the Ativan. You may very well need it sometime. I get 30 pills a month, to take to sleep and NONE allowed for panic attacks, which I average about 2 or 3 per month WITH the medication. It seems like a neverending thing, and I guess that's just because it is. It's hard, I can totally sympathize with how you're feeling. I feel the same. But I stopped taking my meds and realized after a few days that it just wasn't the smartest thing I'd done in awhile (didn't even have the energy or the initiative to smile when I thought about my children....that's low!)

I know this doesn't help much, if at all, but I just wanted you to know that you're not alone.

Best of luck
Take care,
Kimberly.