(((Kiya, Pink, Missboots, Gimmeice, Peg, Chaotic, Soli)))
THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR ENCOURAGEMENT!!

Here's what I did. Naturally got all worked up prior to appt. time and even looked at his face as I walked in and imagined he was getting ready to drop the bomb.

I had prepared a letter to read to him and I wanted to read a new poem I wrote.
So, instead of reading the letter I decided to engage with him as best I could and tell him how difficult last week was for me. We had an amazing talk. I told him about how I was worried about the statement he made about people staying in bad marriages all the time and he said he stands behind that statement. LOL I also told him how it bothered me for four days and I had trouble sleeping.

But then I got serious and we talked more about how therapy was so difficult for me. He hates that it is so hard and painful for me. I tried hard to tell him exactly how I was feeling. I reminded him that he made the statement about bad marriages within the context of our discussion of our ruptures and that although I have a tendency to gravitate toward pain as a means of self soothing to discuss the ruptures all in one lump didn't do justice and that laying it all on my doorstep wasn't fair because there are two of us in the room and he's grouchy sometimes. He received this well and we both laughed.

He invited me to join a talk group he's putting together for this fall. This is different from the process group he mentioned prior and frankly I'm not sure I'm ready for talk group therapy. He said he knows it might be too painful for me just now because of how intense it is for me to connect, and said that he didn't want me to feel left out.
I'll have to think about it.

I changed gears and read him a poem about my therapy and our relationship that I worked on this weekend. He said he was keeping it in his file in case I get famous, so he will have the original.

OMG I love him!

What a difference a session makes........