(((hugs))) Emotions are not evil in themselves.
Here are some links to drclay's book (who will be back before too long to this forum) about emotions. Let me know if you don't find the help you're needing, ok?
http://www.psychologicalselfhelp.org...+with+emotions
Also, there is a sticky post at the top of Psychotherapy Forum that lists the 10 common cognitive distortions. Reviewing them and working on changing how you view things, might also help.
TC!