The worse thing.. is hard to say: get kicked out of my house.. or get literally kicked without sending me with a pro (they think that people with this kind of disorders just want to call the attention and/or are very stupid)--that means, family will try to get the devil out of me by biting me up-- get hospitalized and recover the weight.. lose the opportunity of a scholarship... judgements and punishments for how i think about certain stuff (religion, sex, even politics!!) Trust me, all my life i've been censured and grounded for being myself.. so i tried to please them.. that didnt work... and know all the repressed things (...cause.. yes, there's plenty more..) are overwhelming my mind... and body... did i ever have a life? if i did, it is being f#ck&d as well...