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Unfortunately this statement is totally correct and I know it. I continue to want support via this medium, even though I never get it. Why???

The phone option doesn't seem to match with what I am capable.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">I think a discussion with your T about emails and phone calls would be helpful. You could learn what method she prefers to be contacted by, especially if a response back is wanted. If the uncertainty about what to expect were removed, it seems like this would be so much easier.

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I imagine calling and having my T say.. "How can I help you, what do you need from me?" and I have no real answer

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">Yes, you do have an answer. Your answer is the words you wrote to her in the email. Or this sequence would be good: I just wanted to let you know that after being asked to describe details about ____, that I had flashbacks and got nauseous just washing dishes." "I was thinking about the class I have this weekend, and got scared about possibly freaking."

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it make sense that including an explicit statement saying "CONTACT ME, LIKE NOW" is certainly a reasonable rule.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">As far as you know, this is not her rule--she's never said that. Why don't you talk to her so you can learn what her rules are?

I know this is so hard. I hope in this time of greater need, you can have more frequent sessions with your T so that you can get the support you need.

Best of luck at your upcoming class. As the time gets nearer, if it just seems too much, then you can always choose to not go. There will be time for another course in the future.

Take care.