I don't know something happened to me yesterday as I was ranting on this thread. I think I found something inside of me that didn't exist before. I actually even allowed myself to fantasize a little bit yesterday. LOL I didn't have this capability when I first started posting on PC. Waz up with that?

Last night I slept really well for a change. I woke up this morning not wanting my T any more. By this I don't mean that I don't want therapy any more, just that my need of her attention at this moment is diminished.

Hmmm. kinda asking myself what happened so I can do it again.

Kiya, I think my inner 10 yr old needs a lot of support, encouragement, and reinforcement from my T. Miss C... might this be a case of transference?? I don't think the rest of me allows these needs to be conveyed during my sessions. My T is competent but as Sky_ interjected she is not a mind reader. I don't think she has any idea needed and (I hate to say it) vulnerable I am to her at this point.

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Oh, YEAH. I get this so, so, so, so much. Have you told her you feel like this?

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Ah....Nope I want a marble!

(((sunrise))) TY! I always seem to begin with an unmet want or need, whine about it, then eventually work through it to the point that I don't want or need it anymore. In doing this I am able to feel better but kind of miss the whole point. In the process I forget that I wanted something in the beginning. Although I feel a lot better now, I haven't really accepted that it might be OK for ME to want (maybe even need) someone's attention. Accepting this concept and then finding effective and appropriate ways to communicate this is really what I need to work on most in therapy and in my marriage. Learning to live without is not the same as learning to live.