I am not able to follow the scroll and cannot currently print out so forgive my inability to thank you all by name. Returning to this thread is painful to see because I have been in that frozen state far too many times. I just never put it together with the actual physiological goings on of a triggered PTSD state. Or if I did know that it isn't accessible because a messed up feature for some PTSD is that you forget what you learn as it relates to oneself/ves but can pull those nuggets of learned wisdom and hard study out to assist another in pain. I think some of me gets more triggered than others in which I have one of these full blown shutdowns.

Do any of you see that in yourselves? The ability to help another with a situation that if it were you in that situation you couldn't figure your way out of a paper bag?...so to speak

anyway I ramble as this is hard to be here with my mind flitting about and not landing on anything long enough to really ingest or appreciate.