i have been abused emotionally and sexually ever since i can remember. i feel like there is some kind of sign on my head that says ....".she deserves to be hurt.... hurt her " i have been through a few unwanted relationships as an adult and i am still experiancing minor abuse.... but feel unable to make it end....people tell me to go to the police but how do you hurt your family when even though they hurt you you love them .... they are all you have ..... maybe secretly i wantt to be hurt i am quite sure i deserve it anyway...... i tell myself things like i am just being a baby and it is not as bad as it looks ..... it is just the way he is....i can't change it .... but i know deep down i am wrong i know it is a big deal and that i need to take some kind of action .....but what police? i am terrified of police they have never believed or hepled me ..... cut myself off from my family .... i am afraid to be all alone .... so afraid .......