Maybe I do need to be on medication, I dont know. I have had a few moments in the last couple months where I could actually think clearly and it showed me how delusional and how wrong I thought in my normal mind set. The thing is, Im in my normal mind set most the time and I dont notice anything really wrong.

Im thinking about going on medication. But like I said I have been on medication for a long time before and none of it helped at all, actually made it a lot worse in most cases with all the bad side effects.