I have a horrible time trusting anyone, period! I am unable to allow anyone to get close to me. My T says I have a large fortress and mote around me at all times which interferes with my progress. (In case you don't know I have PTSD, depression and anxiety).

I've been with the same T for 6 years, she is very kind and understanding and respects my boundaries. If I feel even the slightest bit of closeness starting my anxiety goes through the roof. Then I want to run far away and distance myself from her. I know all this is counter productive. But I can't help it.

I feel like I am fighting a war "24X7". I feel like I'm constantly on guard. My family laughs at me because I'm so jumpy.

Will this ever pass; or am I going to be like this for the rest of my life?