You know, I wish I had an answer for that....I ask myself that same thing all of the time. But for me for a great part of my life I have been merely surviving...always felt out of sorts like I didn't belong....like something was definitely wrong....like I had to work extra hard just to feel normal...and all that time I didn't complain too much....not to other people just to myself and god...so when I finally broke....when I finally lost it....everyone was astonished...confused...bewildered.....

I kept up a great facade, but inside I was sad...I was lonely...and afraid... Now I can't seem to regain that footing that I had.... I had a successful career and a pretty great life...and yes I want it all back....but it eludes me because like someone else said...mental illness has no socioeconomic boundaries....it affects anyone and everyone.... People say to me, what do you have to be depressed about...from outward appearances I guess nothing...but it has nothign to do with material possessions or anything like that.. All we have to do is look at the famous people who were super rich who killed themselves and left everyone wondering and saying, "they were fine." Well if they were fine then they would still be here....

Life is not as simple as we would like for it to be...it is in fact complex...and so is mental illness...

TJ