Im an adopted korean and growin up i was ridiculed for it...constantly...by kids i knew and by kids i didnt know...that was 5 years ago and now im very insecure and i own alot of self doubt and a very defensive, cold personality when i feel attacked...i know im not unattractive, but it feels like people dont look at looks and just look at the fact that im not white and my eyes arent like everyone elses....sometimes it hurts for me to feel this way...and makes me wish i had never come to America, the land of dreams and hopes....cause to me, its also the land of stereotypes and ignorance....i know not everyone is like this and only a few are...both those few have made my life hell for 5 years...idk how to break these feelings, but i need to...in order for me to feel better about myself.

thank you for reading....this was mainly to get off my chest how i was feeling.