If I were you, I would really take some time to look at the changes that HAVE occurred in the last six years. If you have spent six years with the same T, something tells me that you aren't as untrusting and unchanged as you think. Sometimes when we get in a rut, we tend to think this way.

It is interesting that you post this because last night, I chose to look at all of my posts, starting from when I joined PC. I had made this one post about being terrified to make T a CD and give it to him. It was so interesting to look back at my fear during that time because now I would give T a CD without any worry or fear whatsoever.

Perhaps talk about this with your T-- they are very good at helping notice the small (or large) changes that have occurred during therapy. We don't always see the ways in which we grow until it is pointed out.