Ok.. this might sound bad... but I'm going to put it as plainly as I can.

I've been on xanax for YEARS.. like about 10 years... the dose is .5 .. 3 x a day. After so many years, I have developed a tolerance... this stands to reason.

So I end up taking a month's worth of pills in a week and a half, then go through panic attacks, unclear thinking and higher blood sugars for the rest of the month.

The doc doesn't want to increase the dosage.. so here I am.. TEMPTED to buy the stuff from some foreign pharmacy online... and THEN this gives me the fear that I'll end up getting some sort of poison or placebo after spending a fortune to do it.

Just knowing I'm OUT of them is giving me a panic attack right at this VERY moment.

On top of this, I'm about to embark on a new business venture and this is NOT the time to have unclear thinking.

If I was a junkie, I'd buy 'em on the street instead of going to a doctor.. I mean.. why bother? I have panic disorder.... I've become tolerant to the small dose I've been taking for years.

What am I supposed to do?

I simply hate this.... I hate being treated like a junkie because there IS a drug that works but the dose isn't doing the trick anymore....

Any suggestions?