Thank you Skeeweeaka for a well written post.....I, too, always felt out of sorts like I didn't belong, like something was definately wrong, like I had to work extra hard just to feel normal...

I have always been very, very aware that my personality is drastically different from the majority of the population..as every personality test so tells me, as reactions from others tell me when I'm simply stating how I like to choose to live my life in the ways I do, spend my time, spend my choices. And it hurts. I believe I was born with my personality, I didn't set out to be this way. I too, was lonely..yet I have recently found my footing..yet all those years of loneliness haunt me, calling me back to them, as if my role has changed and it has left me perplexed..perhaps you, too, can find your footing once again..that is so, so personal as to how and why..so I won't suggest how you go about doing it..mental illness IS complex!! here's a symbol of maturing, this post has helped me mature....