(((purple))) none of us wants you to feel badly and we know that you are hurting very much right now... dont give up hope... the words will come in time... feel at peace and safe as best you are able... praying for you to feel better and that you will be treated with kindness and consideration as you continue to work thru this process...

not to be mean, but would it help to get outdoors a little? breathe some fresh air, clear your mind some.. are you able to get outside?