I feel as if I lead a pretty lonely life and don't know how to change it.

When I was living with other people last spring -- colleagues, an aunt, other friends -- I could see that in my age group (mid 40s-mid 50s -- and my aunt is in her 70s) -- people's phones are not ringing off the hook. In fact, I have more friendship contact than some of the people I stayed with.

In addition, I am an introvert. Which, by the way, doesn't mean that a person is shy, as widely believed. Although it can, in my case. It does mean that we recharge ourselves by going within and being in solitude. While an extrovert is energized by social contact. So too much socializing tuckers me out.

Still I see myself as a misfit.

I also am beating myself up for not having accomplished enough during spring break. I had great plans for completing the bathroom paint job, getting a lot of boxes unpacked. But sometimes I feel so overwhelmed and fatigued I just don't get a lot done.Frankly, things around here are pretty much the same as they were last weekend.

I've decided to take over paying my bills from my mother, but this puts the direness of my situation right in my face. I probably will have to ask her for money now, but I hope that having to ask, instead of having it "taken care of" will motivate me to try harder to find paying work to pay these bills. It is scary.

Sometimes it's nice when feeling like this if people pay attention and give hugs. Nothing much else you can do about these things.