today i talked with my one of my sisters..one of her replies was ..sherry you have to look at other people and see they have it worse..she doesnt realize i know this ..i see this everday...i want to beat my depression..i tired to tell her im getting better...they all try to point out my good quailties..i know i have them..im just haivng trouble right now finding them..i know its hard for them to see me like this..i want to help my mom ..she told she feels helpless cuz she doesnt know what to do for me...wishes she had the magic wand to make me better....how do i make them understand that one bad day doesnt mean im headed back to that dark place....im trying to take care of myself but here i am feeling like i need to take care of them...this is so hard