In effort to build some strength, I've emailed a certain cop a few times recently. He's the one I mentioned in a post in general who I said gave me a gift. He never gave me his work email address, but I know how they are formatted. I don't know if it's "legal" (legal, as in acceptable) for me to email a cop like him, but figure if they didn't want outside emails they would have more of a block on them. Plus there is at least one person there who publicizes his email address on literature for a citizen training program. Anyway, I've told him about in talking and expanded on it in an email about that I will sometimes SI when I have moods. Since ER's tend to give me a lot more stress, I was kind of thinking that maybe if I get a mood to do SI, maybe I could have the police any potential tools that I might use for it to be held for 24 hours. Then I could pick them up and roll up my pants legs, if need be, to show that I didn't harm myself. However anything works out, I think it's good for the police to be fully aware how I can react to stress and PTSD by harming myself. I think it will be better off for both sides because the police trigger me as well! I hope my obnoxious emails actually help him/them at the police. I assume so. I don't have a T or pdoc, so I need somebody who I can depend on besides my primary medical doctor.