Update:

My now-ex and I are not on really good terms.

I think he now has a new girlfriend because she would have a 3-some with him... I just hope he doesn't want to go for full custody with this new girl who is *better* then me only because she wanted to make him happy and gave him a threesome. (That's what he said to me.)

He did tell me he wouldn't have anything to do with the child anymore though... He said this when I asked him what was the most important thing to him and he said sex. I will say I was not too impressed. I asked him where the child fit in and I can tell you she wasn't at the top of the list... He said he was sick of me trying to pressure him with the child.

He says he wants to avoid court which I find good. Though he says if he sends me money he has made clear DNA testing must be done. I just don't even care about money. I'd rather the child have a stable and happy life.

*sigh* I really question what I saw in him right now.

At this point I really do want him not to be in the child's life at all. It would just be way too chaotic with how he lives life.

I just have worries of what I will tell my daughter when she grows up about her father if he isn't around and what I saw in him. I hope she doesn't make the same mistakes as me.

I also worry he'll try to be in her life making things very stressful.