I guess I shared the wrong score there, my sanity score is 161 severely depressed. I dont trust to call any hotline knowing they will trace my number and send cops to haul me away wand steal everything I have left from me.
I have been screwed over by the workers comp system,screwed over by the drs they hire, screwed over by the overwhelming bias against a single middle aged white man today,, cant even get food stamps because 2 vehicles are in my name, never mind they are both 20 or more years old and have 160K and 230K or more. I havent had an income in over a year and survive, endure only by selling off possessions I worked my entire life to acquire. I endure tremendous pain from 3 buldged discs in my neck that the workers comp system now denies. I even went to a free clinic for help and got a bill for $375 for a fifteen minute appointment because I am white and not a brown female with 15 screaming kids but a single white man. My day begins and ends in pain, I wake up in pain,, about 5 am and am in pain all day and havent "gone to bed" in two years,, I pass out from exhaustion about 2-3 AM instead. two years now and no relief, none. Everywhere I go there are more roadblocks and denial of what is going on. I am running out of stuff to sell to buy groceries and pay to even keep my lights on. I go to buy groceries once every two weeks and the prices are climbing and climbing, the struggle seems worthless and insurmountable. what possible reason could there be to continue?

lost,and trampled by the gov.