OOh geesh. This is heavy stuff. Attachment issues. I don't know. By what I've read I don't think I have attachment issues. But then, I don't think I am qualified to say either way. I don't know. Just doesn't seem to fit.. I thought maybe I was on to something. I just don't feel it inside that attachment is a problem with me.

I always got along great with co-workers. Made friends easily. And I always "bounced back" after difficult times. That is until I crashed. That was after the divorce. Although I was slowly slipping while married, I didn't crash until either the divorce or separation..Anyway, it wasn't until my early 50's that I deliberately decided to lay low and not get close to folks anymore. I think the reason is I was sooooo drained emotionally and had nothing of me left to offer, so I just backed off. Guess it felt safe for me to lay low, thinking I would get my old self back. Just haven't gotten the ole me back yet..So I am back to "I don't know what the heck is my problem".

Thinking maybe I should start focusing on the "good" things now.. Guess the "rare mood" I was in when I started this thread has passed. I can say I learned a lot from this thread. I just know sometimes too much info can be overwhelming and hard to sort. I think that is what is happening now. I need to back off, maybe start working on gaining some resilience.. slowly tho.

Thank you everyone that responded. I think I've written back to everyone.