<font color="purple">I think I read an article on the blog here about how inadequite the rescources are for counceling for teensbecause of well...the reasons you stated above, that the school just blabs about it to your parents. I'm not really savvy about these sorts of things, sorry.

It's understandable why you want your boyfriend, considering that you don't have a close relationship with your parents, and from the sounds of things, don't have friends who are really trustworthy in the "keeping serets" department...so I get why you would miss him so much.

I don't think you're a "nut job" by the way.
We all need outlets for our frustrations
And we all need close relationships
Or else we would probably emotoinaly implode
(especialy as teenagers)
Being denied both of those things...it isn't right!

(Eh, sorry this response is crappy, I hope someone else here does a better job trying to help out )</font>