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It's okay, you can post here. It's a really supportive atmosphere and nothing your going through is strange really (just not talked about really).

It is possible you have ADHD (ADHD is the accepted term now, not ADD). You won't know until you go to a psychologist. Is it possible for you to do that?

What my psychologist told me was that a lot of kids with ADHD get abused more often by their parents, because the ADHD behaviors provoke the already unstable parent even more. It's NOT YOUR FAULT that your parents are abusive--they are abusive whether you have ADHD or not, and that is a part of THEIR personal problems, NOT YOURS. Because abusive parents have no patience for children anyway, ADHD kids tend to take the brunt of the abuse because they are more visible, and less easy to control. We also don't respond the same way to the same stimuli as a "normal" kid would, and no matter how many times an abusive parent is violent, to the ADHD kid it doesn't change the ADHD kid's behavior the way the parent was hoping. Abusers don't take anything to snap, and often times they look for anything they can to snap about.

Do you have much farther to go before you can move out of your parents house? Graduating and going to university I hope?????
The cutting issue is really important too. It sucks to not have friends understand ADHD, but I went through that too when I was a child and teenager. When you get treated and see a psychologist and maybe start meds if you need/want, it gets so much better. Give it time.

In the meantime, I would sleep over at friends houses as much as possible to avoid your abusive parents. It's not fair, and I'm really sorry about that. No one deserves abuse or to feel bad or unloved. Your parents have the problems and your being the adult and confronting your issues by posting here. Is there anyone you can trust at school like a good teacher or counselor? What about a friend's parents, or a relative like an aunt or uncle that you can talk to about that? A lot of times a aunt, uncle, or grandparent even are more than willing to take an abused niece/nephew or grandchild into their home if to avoid being "taken away." If your living in a safe environment like that, then you can see a counselor/ psychologist without fear of being put in foster care.

Feel free to post here whenever you want. We don't judge too much here. A lot of people here have the exact same issues.