part of me really wants to give up but i know i can't for my son's sake he is my only rason for living right now....i have lost 5 pounds so far this week just haven't been eating have no desire the thought of eating upsets me.....last night i wanted to hurt myself really bad but didn't because of son......i don't feel i deserve to eat or feel good....i am in so much pain ....and it is all my fault