Dear one, I, too, experienced that kind of violence as I was growing up. I believe that it's one of the most difficult things to get over and I know that you're really in pain right now. I'm so much older than you that it's ridiculous, but things will get better as time goes by. You know that I care for you and am sending you tons of love and hugs, if okay, and will be here for you. I'm going to the store but will be back shortly. Love, pat