I know this should probably be posted in the General forum but quite frankly my self-esteem can't take another hit when I receive very few responses there or God forbid, more negative ones or attacks. I feel very raw on that forum now. I feel more comfortable and safe in this forum.

Anyway, I'm sure y'all know that I'm in the darkness of the abyss. Is that still or again? Geez, I'm losing track now. You must also notice that I've hardly been posting lately, must've sent y'all into a state of shock I'm sure.

Anyway, to the point of this thread, I'm going to be going through an extremely emotional week this week. Could I please be so bold to ask if you could remember me. I'm not sure how all this is going to affect my already extremely depressive cycle. To say that this week is going to be difficult for me is an extreme understatement. Just looking for some good vibes, prayers, whatever you can send my way that is positive. I might be absent the entire week or more if I shut down even more. All I know is that some very negative things are going to happen and I'm not going to cope with them very well. I need all the support I can get. Right now I'm going back to bed, where I've been spending all my time lately. Too depressed to do much else. Thanks.

I'm sorry that I haven't been here and won't be over the next little while to keep up with what each of you are going through and offering my support. I feel really bad about that.