I think I understand what you mean when you say you feel stuck. I always thought the same way - that I could never lose weight, that if I could just be thin I would be happy and all the other problems in my life would go away, or at least they'd be easier to deal with.

But I have to tell you, even when I got to my goal weight (which was 125 -- I'm 5'5'') I still had problems and I still felt "fat" sometimes. I am having other problems now, but when I initially lost weight I did it the healthy way and it worked........it took a while and there were frustrations and setbacks but it worked

Dieting is not the answer..... the answer is to nourish body and exercise to be strong. Go back to the sports you used to do like rock climbing - that is awesome! Eat lots of fruits and veggies and whole grains. Don't cut out any foods entirely -- have sweets and snacks in moderation.

Are you sure you really need to lose weight at all? All bodies are different and no one looks like the models you see on magazines - even the models don't look like that because they edit and airbrush the pictures!!!! Society and the media set up an impossible standard for women and then we kill ourselves trying to meet it and hate ourselves for not being able to.

I don't know if any of this is helpful....maybe you've heard it all before.

Bananas, please believe me that the mirror may be lying to you .....the number on the scale doesn't really matter....it doesn't really have anything to do with who you are.
Try to take care of yourself.
kt