he dosent understand SI or abuse, he has no CLUE what its like to live in my mind. for a SECOND. he does not understand what I need. however I have been talking to a guy that i am not attracted to. but who makes me laugh, understands my issues and DEALS with them accordingly. i see him. never cheated. but i gotta tell you. the grass looks greener on the other side. after 15 years of marriage this guy just dont get it, and when the arguments are over with he expects me to just turn it off.....forget that %#@&#!.

I am worthless