It's kind of hard to show my kids love when he won't let me see them and they won't talk to me on the phone because they are too upset about not seeing their mom or their dad is a B--ch and won't let me talk to them. Yes, their is some info missing because I didn't think I'd need to post the entire history, but I was homeless at the time of the divorce just as I am now which is WHY I don't have custody of my kids. For other information, I gained another PTSD problem relating to not having my kids due to the fact that I had a severe PTSD reaction because of things their father did to me and my kids went to live with their father--the person responsible for my orginal PTSD in the first place.