Wants to, you are doing the best you can and that is great. You are here as a friend and you are waking up and getting out of bed every morning. Please be kind to yourself. By the way, I am probably a little younger then you and I can't believe how slowed down I have become. I used to be like the tasmanian devil and whirl around until things were done, now it's like about half that. So be kind okay?