Pink, I understand about the talk getting too complicated. There are times in therapy when I'm not sure it is too complex for me, but I have trouble following him, his words, the point he is trying to make. And it often seems like when he is saying something important, this happens. So I tell him I am having trouble and ask for a paper and pen and I ask him to say slowly the important points, and I repeat them back (and he corrects me if need be), and I write them down. I know this sounds kind of silly, but otherwise I fear I will miss important things--this often happens on action points for me (what am I supposed to do again?). Would that help you at all?

What is the contract? That you have to skip a therapy session if you SI beyond a certain point? If that's true, one option would be to take the bull by the horns and call him and say that you SIed too much so you won't be seeing him this time. Or see what he says when you call him. It might save you a trip.

RE the anger: Could you ask him for advice on how to handle it and move out of it so you can be more productive?

Good luck today. And good luck with the new med.