Sarah, I'm sorry you feel this way. I was not adopted and whished I would have been! My life was pure hell and my siblings are screwed up as well. Some people are not meant to be parents! I am now trying to parent a 16month old and a 4 year old and am at a loss at being a good emotional parent. The physical part is easy it is the emotional part that is so hard. I know you must not have felt wanted because you were given away but your birth mom loved you enough to bring you life! I am so not proud of the 4 abortions I had before I had my 2 kids. I was selfish and didn't want to get fat,go to Dr appointments,give up medication,cafiene,etc.. and carry a baby to know I would give it away so I took the easy way out! I regret not giving them a chance at life. It was my decision and I live with it every day. I hope you can find some peace knowing you were loved enough for your birth mom to carry you until you could live outside her womb. HUGS!