You are not rambling!!!!! Can I suggest or advise? 1. Try to find a pain clinic, you deserve to have your pain managed. 2. Hook up with the MS foundation and ask for info and support. 3. Speak with you legislators about your issue, call your senator or congressional hotline and tell them what the problem is. Believe me, that one usually gets butts moving. It is hard when you are in pain and depressed to stick up for yourself. It is however critical. What are the associations around you for people who have disabilities? If you want to p.m. me about where you live I can speak with some friends who have physical disabilities and see what they can find for me in your area. Do you have a center for Independent Living? Also, the E.R. is always an option if your pain is unmanageable and you could be admitted for the sole purpose of pain management. DO NOT ACCEPT THAT YOU HAVE TO HAVE THE PAIN! Okay, I will stop yelling. The only other thing is roxinol is similar in affects to the methadone. Does it help you?