Thank you all for being here. I was just telling T today how alone I feel dealing with all this because who do I turn to for help? My dead family? They already bailed out!

It's so complicated because of my relationship with my mother. I have been the parent to her since I was a little girl, yet she has a sharp tongue and is very critical of me which makes me want to back off. Then I feel guilty because she may not be around long and here I am feeling sorry for myself when I should be rising to the occassion and being there for her 24/7.

I will never be the daughter she wanted me to be and she will never be the mom I needed. But we've managed to get through some difficult times before and I'm sure we'll be able to do it again.

I am doing my best to support her. That's all I can do.

I come here and see the support from all of you and I'm not feeling so alone. You guys bring tears to my eyes. Thanks for being here.