I dream about her, I have visions of her, I write about her, she is my life but I"m so scared to tell her. I have told her I loved her but I lied and said "not romanticly just theraputicly"......I think she can tell but at the same time I'm not sure...gosh she's 45! I'm 18...but she's so attractive,intelligent,stylish,active,loveable, all the things I want in a woman yet she's double my age....how do I get through this...its been a year and my feelings still haven't changed...how do I go about talking to her about this without her fireing me? Help plz