I am so sorry for your pain. I would hope that you can see a good doc and get meds straightened around. Please try not to worry about something being physically wrong with you. That cocktail is reason enough for how you are feeling. I can't remember if you have a pdoc but I do remember the clinic tossing you out. That had to be so hurtful. It took me a long time to find, then build a relationship with a doc I trust and like. It was a very important step for me. I hope you can find a doc as wonderful as mine.