(((((((((((((((((( pegasus )))))))))))))))))))))
Man, you're really going through it with this T right now!
I know this is so cliche...but perhaps this will be one of those "when one door closes, another one opens" situations? Perhaps you will find a new T who will move you to a new level of healing?
Of course that's easy for me to say. The thought of being terminated before I'm ready makes my stomach flip flop. I'm so sorry you're having to worry about this.