yes you do have every right to work through your hurts in your own time. You are in the process of doing that and that is some hard work to face.
Keep at it sweetie. I have no advice as to how to go about this healing. I can only offer up that I believe in you and back your choices in
your healing path!! Often others expect your path to be different or conform more to their ideals. I only expect you to continue being honest with yourself about your feelings and working through them as needed.
You're walking the walk SC.
We're witnessing. We're seeing this.