(((((((((DePressMe)))))))))))))),

Just want you to know that you are in my prayers......I know how tough it is being in a situation that you don't really want to be in....especially in a locked up situation in the hospital (sadly, I have also been there so I can relate). Sometimes we are feeling better, so we think the meds aren't really what is helping, thinking we can really do it without them.....but when it comes right down to it, there are really some conditions that are truely helped with the meds & we just have to accept that as part of our lives, just as diabetics learn to accept insulin. The time it take for us to truely understand that can leave us in situations that really aren't ourselves & we can do things that really aren't the real us....sad how the mind works when we aren't in control of it.......but know that it isn't really you that was violent either. I am sure that after your meds get stabalized in your system again, you will be back here as good as new (if not better....lol).

Take care of yourself.....we will be looking forward to your return when you are feeling up to it. It's nice that they have given you 15 minutes on the computer.....when I was in the hospital.....in the mid 90's....they didn't even have computers available.......so at least you have some link to the outside world.....which was the part that I hated most about ending up in the hospital....either locked up or voluntary.

take care,
Debbie