At my last session, T said to me "a switch gets thrown in your brain, and the system kicks in to protect you"

I know I dissociate, but it's the first time anyone outside of me has talked about a "system". Huh. He and I don't talk about it very much, but every once in a great while he throws something like that in which makes me wonder....what does he know that I don't know?

It makes me anxious....but I don't like to talk with him about it that much, so I'm just left with the occasional comment from him that makes me scratch my head.

Also - a question. Can anyone dissociate on purpose? Like say to yourself, this is too much, I'm outta here? I thought I could, but I've realized recently, that I can't. It just happens when it happens. I AM starting to be able to feel it happening, and sometimes I can sort of reground myself and stay kind of half-present.

Thinking too much this morning....
K