Good Morning Katie...

In this world of ours we are always faced with choices,,I mean have you been down the breakfast cereal isle lately?

But outside of the colorful boxes of new and improved,,our personal lives are challenged with infinite options...and generally if we boil down our choices with "things" it becomes a decision to take the easier way or the hard way....

The easier way is attractive in many ways,,,it often seems to save time and of course pain,,,but in reality,,seldom does.

The hard way,,likewise,,looks as if it will be drudgery and forever,,but that too is often a result of projection and some impatience.

I have read most of your posts Katie and I find you to be one of the rare seekers. You suffer from some rather distressful emotional conditions at your own admitting and yet are constantly challenging them and yourself,,, to find solutions. That is a commendable trait. It will serve you well.

What you suffer with is not something you can fix by September. You know that. But it can be fixed and I think you know that too or you wouldn't be searching. Some of your symptoms can be mitigated for sure and you certainly can be offered scripts to get you through the day in some fashion,,but the disorder has to be faced with a willingness that defines you.

A long term plan of action, including therapy (DBT), socialization, risk, and physical activity. If you keep doing what your doing,,you'll keep getting what your getting. Your not a whiner or complainer but your obviously not happy with what you have been getting.

So Katie,,,decide. Thats really all you need to do. But this decision is a big one. It means everything else is secondary to this mission. I mean everything. But not forever. Only until the pain is understood and the fear quieted.

Everything is truly up to you. That is the wonderfull thing about it,,we get to choose.

This week I bought Fruit Loops.

With care,

Lenny